Broken Agreements

Broken Agreement litter the floor
And I am here, wishing for more

More money, more time
an unconscious whirl
I think it's time to grow up the girl

And step fully in to the life that I've caused
It's a bit messy for now, but there's hope if I pause

To take in the magnitude of what Life can be
When I regather my power and focus on me

In one week I can tear down what took years to create
So what can I create when doubt and fear immancipate

And I am Bold and Free
Taking actions that Liberate
Create A burst of Energy
by Moving My
body

And Wake Up my Power to GENERATE!!!
~Jaime Powell

Last night, I was a mermaid...

I was a mermaid, beautiful turquoise tail...
swimming through the beams of light filtering through the water...
schools of dolphins and magical fish
playing in the columns of light streaming down
from the water's surface.
An intense and beautiful energy of love,
passion, delight streaming through my body...
grateful for my life.
I swam away to attend to some underwater business.
After a while I began to swam back to the area
where the light was streaming in and in the distance
I saw long, oily dark fingers reaching through the water,
wrapping around my friends, who were very confused.
As I swam further, I could see the fingers getting thicker,
turning into a large, thickly muscled arm and
then just a formless, endless watery, oily horizon.
Bodies of my playmates began to lose life-force,
and I realized I was being coated as well...
Wailing. Devastation.
Ear splitting cries of terror and devastation.
My heart breaks wide open.
Unable to be separate,
unable to even desire to be separate from my beautiful world.
Our mother is bleeding.
Our greed and never-enoughness has wounded her,
and the bleeding hasn't stopped.
Her blood is purifying our hearts...if we let it.
Go ahead, let this uncomfortable feeling settle in.
just take a moment, and let the tears come.
Allow yourself to wail, to weep and mourn for this Present Moment
in our Planet's story.
Let it tear you apart. So often we won't allow the tears, our heart shuts down,
afraid it will never open again.
This is a time to allow the flow of tears...
our own healing waters given freely to our oceans...
each tear drop a symbol of purification.
Call a friend, we don't have to weep alone.
Although that is healing, too.

What more will it take to bring us together, my sisters and my brothers?

A round planet has no sides.

Not in the workplace, not in the family,
not between self-imposed boundaries.
Separation is just an illusion.

We are all on this boat together.

I pray for all of our hearts to
awaken and bring us closer and closer...
allowing peace to enter this planet
in such a healing and powerful way:
for humanity,
for all the other beings that make up the majority of life on our planet.

For the plant-beings without the ego-sense that we have,
posessing the wisdom of being on this planet for ages before we arrived,
I am open and ready to receive the lessons you have to offer us.

Awakening the memory in our cells that water is the connection between
our very own bodies and every living being...
there is no separation...
we are water, surrounded by water in its gas form,
completely connected to the Gulf,
no matter where we are on this planet,
from the water that we are to the water-form that we breathe...
no separation.
All One!
With Love,
J

How do you stay happy all the time, Jaime?

(I wrote this as a Facebook reply
in response to some one asking "Jaime, how do you stay so happy all the time?"
just before I dusted off this blog site,
and started to actually use it!)

Affirmations are seeds that I lovingly plant
in my consciousness now, as much as I can remember,
in thought and in writing,
to start to shift my "samskaras" or habitual grooves/patterns
that have developed over the course of my lifetime
for whatever limitless reasons...

my particular old patterns include anger and rage,
really big, vibrant streams of tangible spikey feelings shooting out from my body...
(even if I'm silent and the lights are out, people can feel them)

and I am just committed to release myself of the toxicity
that I can create in my body and in the space around me,
when I unconsciously unleash this on myself and others...
release myself of the toxicity with love...gently shifting and embracing the
slow blossoming and unfolding of my highest self.

(After writing this, I have since shifted calling anger "toxic,"
and now just seeing it as a shade of passion
for what I really want, asking "Why am I angry? What am I really wanting here?"
As I see the anger as passion for what I am really wanting to create,
I can funnel that passion into creativity...
creating the world I envision...
"Be-ing the change I wish to see" (Thank you, Gandhiji!)

Having a garden is really helping me with a
loving, gentle transformation process...
the little seedlings totally take their
good, sweet time growing and unfolding...
it doesn't help for me to get frustrated or pissed
that they aren't already tomatoes or squash!
(Believe me, I have! I speak with the wisdom of experience!)

I get to treat myself like *that* with gentle awe and wonder...

my slightest improvement is of such great value...

the slightest opening of my leaves is occasion to celebrate...
the moment I can breathe and shift the old thoughts
that have me wreak havoc on myself and others,
and make a new choice...getting closer and closer...

♥ ♥ ♥Yep. Totally human being over here,
just really conscious and intentional with
what I put out into the Universe,
and the seeds I am planting in my own consciousness,
and the collective consciousness...

I totally thrive on support, too...
other beautiful human beings like you
walking the path with me
is unbelievably helpful and relieving...
we don't have to walk alone, ever...
There is Hope!!!
And even beyond Hope, there is actually Certainty
within the Uncertainty
that this too, shall pass!

Wow.

I just recently got a few apps for my Iphone:
"Anger Management Affirmations" and "'What's good about Anger."

It's like daily medicine for me to listen to these
and other enlightening material
and continue to pursue healing remedies,
affirmations, workshops, counseling, NVC, yoga, RC, dancing, hooping...
to really become the beautiful, wonderful being I am capable of being...

All the while knowing I can't strive toward
something that I already am,
and also,
that there *is* work to be done to bring
my way of living and being into an alignment
that makes real happiness, contentment, absolutely possible.

"The effort to change and improve ourselves is
fraught with the risk of subtle self-aggression
that only produces more unhappiness..." Donna Farhi

So, for now I'll keep affirming...

I am a calm, even tempered person.
I am the only person that controls my emotions
and I embrace the ever-changing nature of life
I always get exactly what I want or something even better.

And I'll gently allow myself to grow into that way of being!
Big Love to anyone reading these posts...
this is fun...
maybe I should blog???!!

(This exerpt copied from Facebook before this blog!
It is the inspiration for blogging!)

♥

Thoughts destroy or create in the body: How I shift

meditation and yoga combined with dialogue techniques,
intentional journaling (focused toward empathy and healing)
and a deep respect for passion, life force, chi

After 11 years of being a personal fitness trainer,
yoga teacher and life coach:
an advocate for people embarking on outward,
physical manifestations of change,

I have realized that in order for me to really
shift the health of the actual cells of the body,
dramatic shifts in my ways of thinking get to shift.

This requires being revealed to myself and to other people.

What's really going on up there,
in that brain, that analytical, thinking mind,
that is showing up in my physical body?

My thoughts are undeniably and intricately
linked to the manifestation of my physical body.

My thoughts are matter that settles into my energy field
and either helps to destroy or create.

Of course, there are thousands of thoughts a day...
and that is the fun part...or it can be!

Through daily rigorous practice,
I can start to shift my thoughts
into higher and higher energetic states.

For me, this requires identifying
the unhelpful thoughts through
dialogue and journaling.

There are also amazing tools like Focusing, NVC and RC,
(Non-Violent Communication and Re-Evaluation counseling or Co-Counseling)
that help me identify body sensations, decipher stories I'm telling myself,
from my feelings, and the needs that lie underneath,
so that I can make requests of myself and others.

Having an intentionally healing conversation
with a compassionate person, capable of empathy,
is, for me, a vital tool in helping me to shift my
thought patterns into higher and higher vibrations.
vibrational .

For me, this models the tool of empathy
so that I can begin to use it on myself.
the more I can self-empathize, the more
I can actually be present for someone else
in my life who may need my empathy to shift
their state.

Meditation and Yoga have helped me to slow down
my thoughts to some degree, but without affirmations
journaling and dialoguing through tough times,
I have just created myself in the past as a
lonely, righteous, judgmental, self and world-hating yogi,
or so I thought...
I am actually an incredibly passionate woman.
I am a total delight.
I am a beautiful and wonderful woman, worthy of all good things.
I always get exactly what I want, or something even better.

I get to combine several tools of my choosing to begin
to create real connection with myself and my world.

As always, on this cosmic buffet,
take what you like and leave the rest.
Peace and Blessings~
J

Stepping off the wheel of Karma

Hello My Friends!

Cause and Effect...cause and effect...

Today I sit with the results of my actions,
and I am ready to release my self from the endless cycle
of repurcussions that could be possible from the
limitless mistakes I have made in the past.

Holding on to old mistakes
has resulted in my need to punish myself.

This is perpetuated by the old, unhelpful belief that I am somehow
inherently bad and wrong.

This has also manifested as
me granting others permission to punish me.
Go ahead, I used to say...I know I'm so pathetic...join me in this beating myself up...
look, we can even do it together!

I am totally good, beautiful and wonderful and I re-claim that today.
I give myself total permission to grow and thrive in this world
as a healer, teacher, author, speaker, dancer, singer,
lover, partner, friend, daughter, activist, gardener,
and fire hooping stilt walker puppeteer.

I no longer need to create any authority figures
in my life dictating
whether I can or can not do
what I am here in this world to do.

This is the deal.
I am here to create and facilitate miracles.

The miracle of inspiring people to take excellent care
of themselves and blossom into their fullest potential.

People, we are amazing creatures capable of radical change
and beautiful, easeful transformation.

It's time to get up off my butt,
shake out the cobwebs and
go create real change in the world.

There are so many children in the world who are craving to be seen.
There are so many elderly who are craving to be seen.
And we are craving to be seen.
Among other things.

It's so funny how I can create people, institutions, certifications,
standards, situations and things
to form the illusion that I am limited
in the changes I can effect in this world.

I release you all from that old, played out role in my life.
I release you and set you free.

I now accept my unlimited power to affect real change and healing on this planet.

Thank you all those who I cast
in the roles of authority figures,
holders of my power,
disciplinarians...
that must have been a tough role for you to play.
You are free, now!

I got it from here...

I am a beautiful, wonderful woman,
who can't be bad no matter what I do.

I am a healer, a transformer...
with big, beautiful feelings...
I believe my passion is welcome here,
and I'm healing from the belief that it isn't.
Anger is just passion, desire, just energy,
and what I want is beautiful and wonderful,
especially as I practice to understand and refine
my desires to come into alignment with the service of All Beings!

I am here to spread this liberating news
to the beautiful, wonderful beings who
may have forgotten
who they really are, too.

I love you,
and I'm Baaaack!!!
Love,
Jaime